I've lost my fight...

I'm sure it's because I'm tired. I have been fighting a really long hard battle what seems like well shoot I guess at my age 14 years is just short of half my life.

The thing is I was born with a fire in my belly and for so very long just try and get me to shut up if I believed in something. I fear that I have fallen prey to the cynics of the world. I haven't quite joined them just walking away for a change. I'm sure this is temporary. Maybe a much needed rest before a big one. It doesn't sit well with me so I think that must be a good sign.

Today's Song Stuck In a Stare by Waking Norman ~

I woke up this morning in a daze
Watching the star I want to be fade away
But I made my commitment
I stood up straight and tall
To a memory of what love is
And a marquee upon the wall

But who’s gonna make me pay first
A living soul of a dream that is my curse

I'm stuck in a stare
I know you don’t care
I only want to lift you up
With arms that just aren’t there
Will somebody snap me out of this
Place called in between
I find myself slipping more and more
In and out of reality

Do you ask yourself why you’re really here
Or is it easier to walk around in tears
Tell me do I make you happy
Are you where you’ve not to be
Did you walk that road to find me
Am I who I'm supposed to be

You say that you’re not strong enough to
Stay and play the game
And tonight my curse has come to take me
Away again

I'm stuck in a stare
I know you don’t care
I only want to lift you up
With arms that just aren’t there
Will somebody snap me out of this
Place called in between
I find myself slipping more and more
In and out of reality

You’ve resigned yourself to be who you are
And it just isn’t fair
If I can’t be who I'm meant to be
Then set me free...