Friday, March 12, 2010

maybe someday I'll learn...

well actually I have learned more than I realized 15 minutes ago ~ ADD much... ugh sorry!

...we only want to feel as close as we can be
use hands for holding onto your precious family
just believe in all who shine the light to help you see
'cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me ~ Blue October

Thursday, March 11, 2010

If you read my silly little blog...

but haven't checked out www.thepioneerwoman.com ~ well trust me she has A LOT more going on than I do. She has inspired me to cook... which you may or may not know I don't do and well now I'm attempting and doing better (pictures help ~ pictures help A LOT!)

The point is yesterday she posted a contest in which we were to answer the question, 'Are you where you thought you would be 10 years ago?'


ummmmm hmmmm let me think.... 10 years ago, I was pregnant... living in Vermont... telecommuting to California... Jordan was 4 and still didn't think I was the dumbest person on the planet... in fact ~ at 4 I was IT for my girl. In March specificially 10 years ago... I had JUST found out that I was expecting and I was STILL very Very VERY unhappy about it ~ only one person 'Got That' and it was not someone that I even thought paid attention to me when I spoke. I was NOT a fan of snow and we got A LOT that winter so I rarely left my house.

10 years ago... I had never heard a Pat Green song... I had NO idea who Blue October was... I was ridiculously overweight... I hadn't fallen in love with Spiderman... I drove a mini-van and well looking back ~ happy isn't a word that I would have used to describe that person in that life.

10 years ago, if you had asked me what I thought about Texas, I would have said NOT MUCH, I'd only seen Amarillo at that point and to say I was less than impressed doesn't adequately cover the feelings I had.

If you had asked me about friendships, I would have said that there were some. Two in particular that I treasured. I had many acquaintances back then but not a lot of full on... drive me to the airport... take care of my kids without a thought... ones I laughed too much with or would cry in front of friends.

I hadn't felt REAL loss yet in my life... I hadn't lost my mind yet... I had juggling down to a perfect science ~ but no 10 years ago... I NEVER saw anything that looked like my life today.

and that's OK

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

March... already ~ how is that possible???

I'm glad because there are many things I'm looking forward to this month, but good grief can we slow the pace on life in general WAY down!!!

I'm going to get back to really blogging this year... for those that read this, sometimes you'll get it ~ sometimes you won't. My apologies in advance.

Are you looking for something new to listen to? Check out needtobreathe... they are my present love Love LOVE...

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