they should make...

a reality show about the restaurant that i work in... but the hidden camera kind 'cause everyone would clean up their act if they knew a camera was on them i'm convinced... this is also WHY reality tv doesn't work ~ everyone KNOWS they are on camera... so none of it's real ~ DUH ~ anyway last night's episode would have gotten the Dr. Phil Dysfunctional Entertainment Award of the Decade i promise...

i've known this now for awhile but i just get amazed each and everyday ~ i am truly blessed with the most amazing circle of friends ~ granted it's a LARGE circle... not in number of people but in diameter of miles... which makes most days heartbreaking 'cause i want those friends in my everyday life, but for this summer i am fortunate to be closer to one and just blessed by her love and thoughtfulness... and another who i hope won't mind me saying this here ~ was in just not a great place when i first met her last year ~ is now happier than i think she even thought she would ever be... has truly found her soul mate and love of her life and about to start that forever life which i even believe for them (which doesn't happen often for me)

i believe in soulmates ~ i have found mine even no question ~ i believe in love ~ i have real, true, unconditional love in my life everyday ~ but do i believe that for me there is a forever love with one person ~ nope... i really don't think i'm built that way and i'm ok with that ~ it's not that i'm wanting to whore around for the next 60 years or however many more i'm blessed with that's not it at all... today's lyrics... this is where i am at... this is what best describes me...

'you don’t want me
try the real dancers
i’m busy right now
searching for answers'

Postcard from Paris ~ Dub Miller