my life is backwards...

i told a friend that the other day... i'm not living my life with or around the people that i should be... in a place that i love... with opportunities for growth for all of us... i'm living it in a place that well let's face it i've NEVER wanted to be here... around people that are either not at all good for us or just don't get us... there is a small handful but comparatively speaking ~ it's all just wrong and it's what brings about days like yesterday... oh and the people who got me through yesterday... big surprise are not here ~ i'm gonna fix all this!