so this is sitting...

in my chest... makin' my heart heavy and i need to put it somewhere so this is the place ~ and remember this one place is completely mine so if you have anything to say... you can just try and breath a bit and be kind before going off

so someone i know is going in to have gender realignment surgery today ~ she was born physically a man but believes that everything that truly matters is not... so this person has made the decision to make herself physically aligned with the rest of her

this is where most people ~ at least the ones around me that know her as well... are just horrified and make hurtful comments and judgements about her... and the terrible person that she is

well maybe i'm the one that is wrong but let's put all that is confusing about this situation aside... all of the things that those of us who are fortunate enough to feel comfortable in our own skin and with who we are... things we just can not possibly understand aside for a minute and think about this with a caring heart and compassion

what i don't understand is when people make comments about how could he/she do this to everyone around her... what a freak... blah... blah... blah... my goodness that is exactly the point isn't it ~ why would someone ~ anyone choose to be an outcast... a pariah... cut off from all of those that once called them friend/family/coworker... why would someone choose to lose everything of the life that they know

it would absolutely have to be that what they are gaining means more... and it's that thing i seek most too right... that inner PEACE... to some it's worth more than anything else because when its missing the ache is just about unbearable...

for the ones that make the comments stating that God doesn't make mistakes... really ~ well the way i see it... and follow this for a bit... so the apple was eaten in that Garden... and from that point on... all hell has broken loose if you think about it... well that was what that serpent wanted wasn't it... from that moment humans began giving God almost more than he can handle and i'm sure that he has gotten over the initial disappointment of being disobeyed... as parents that's what we do ~ but see if you can follow this for a minute ~ ever since that moment HIS job became more than he had initially bargained for... so is it completely unfathomable to believe that at the moment that he was supposed to be touching the womb of this woman and complete his blessing on her child... we as human's screwed something up somewhere SO big... say Korea for example 'cause the timing would be right... that he blinked and had a bit more on his plate at that moment... which is why this person wasn't made completely whole... so realizing that more than was truly manageable was going on in this human society as we have become more evolved or advanced than was ever truly intended... God himself decided to guide those with vision down the path that would allow for things he wasn't able to make truly correct the first time around to be made right... as parents isn't that what we do... guide our children... hope they don't make our mistakes... arm them with all we can so that their lives will be better than ours and sometimes even better than we could have hoped for ~ if we were truly created in God's image... doesn't all this make sense... it does to me anyway

so i will be praying to God that the surgeons have a steady hand and a light heart... that she wakes up feeling the least amount of physical pain and discomfort possible... and in all that she has lost... she finds her PEACE