"it all started... naturally with hate me..."

safe to say... if you have seen the tattoo... i'm MORE than passionate about this song... and now this too...

oh my lord...

The Thorn Birds

"There is a legend about a bird which sings just once in its life, more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth. From the moment it leaves the nest it searches for a thorn tree, and does not rest until it has found one. Then, singing among the savage branches, it impales itself upon the longest, sharpest spine. And, dying, it rises above its own agony to out-carol the lark and the nightingale. One superlative song, existence the price. But the whole world stills to listen, and God in His heaven smiles. For the best is only bought at the price of great pain... or so says the legend..." by Colleen McCollough

ok... i have read this book every year... at least once a year since I was about 11... yes that young for such a mature story...

it's my favorite novel... or it was...

until now... Twilight the Series by Stephenie Meyer

oh My HECK... it's amazing...

"Do you think any of us want to look him in the eyes for the next hundred years if he loses you?" Alice

i don't want to give anything away... but I'm on team Edward... I hear these are labled young adult novels... wtf ever... just sayin' they are well written and as a mid adult... well H.O.T. for me... but i have this crazy vampire thing anyway... I love them... LOVE them...

*sigh*

Michael Phelps

nuff said

Lowest of lows…

The thing about me is that when I’m happy, excited or passionate about something it takes me to this almost magical place where everything looks better, smells better, tastes better, feels better… a friend recently said to me that she never gets terribly excited about anything… but she is ok with that because the converse is that she never gets the opposite which is feeling just utterly shattered.

That’s pretty much where I have been lately… feeling like I can’t get out of my own way… feeling sad… lonely… confused… empty…

I’m not bi-polar ~ I’ve been on enough couches… it would have been diagnosed by now if I was. But I’ll say that it feels that way sometime. I can very much point at all the factors that have me feeling this way and I’m trying to sort them all out… it’s just none of it is a quick fix… it’s all things that take time and patience and you just have to muddle through…

So I’m not in Idaho ~ I need to be… but I had to make one of those awful grown up decisions… I need badly a vacation… not necessarily to go anywhere other than to just shut down my mind for a brief period of time and rejuvenate. I’m working on that.

For those that check in here… I do miss you all a lot. I’m just not a whole lot of fun right now so I’ve kept to myself… I’ll come back around to the happy side of life again soon… I feel confident of that!