because the pain is very real...

i told Travis that i was going to stop caring so much about so many people 'cause the pain is getting to be a bit much ~ his response was accurate since he's known me for ummm 21 years... ish ~ 'No you won't... it's what you do... it's what you've always done.'

the background ~ i have turned my life upside down the for these two weeks to help out my boss who has become a dear friend...even though i don't always agree with how she handles things... anyway i'm house sitting... dog sitting... and 16 year old sitting ~ yeah... so last night i get a call from the police department... in the middle of making dinner for my babies... and he needed a ride ~ he wasn't in trouble but the boy driving the car that he was in had been arrested... there are so many issues that i have with this entire situation but the one that had me wanting to just stop caring was the fact that... i adore this boy... i see so much potential in who he can be... i just want to hug him and take care of him... he's lost or left behind is maybe a better way to put it... and he's trying to find his way but at 16 your map hasn't been filled in yet... you have part of it... some of the legend to help you figure it out but there is still so much more and it's just not fair what is going on with him... and it's not my place to do more... i'm not his mom or even any kind of anything more than a friend but yesterday every single adult in his life... failed him ~ well except for me and i'm not just saying that because it's my blog... i was where i said i would be so when the police officer called he reached me... i picked him up... i listened... i tried to plea his case and get him to be able to stay with us... but those in his life that enjoy drama thought there was a better answer... i hope it worked out for him... and when i see him today i'll hug him... and hope REALLY hard that he feels just how much i love him... and i'm not gonna listen to everyone talking and joking about how much of a screw up he is... 'cause he's not... and someone needs to stand up next to him... i'll do that today and for as long as he needs it... 'cause that is what i do when i love you