no knows what they would do...

but i'm so sad tonight as one of my friends lost the father of her child and her future husband last evening because he decided a life where he couldn't use his arms and legs was not worth living...

so i say again... none of us know what we would do

and to paint the best picture his spinal injury was the same as Christopher Reeves... he required a breathing machine and was told that given all that current medicine could provide... he would never walk again... he chose after two months that this was not the life for him and requested the doctor to shut off the machines that were breathing for him...

he didn't want this life... he didn't want to be a burden to his mother... his future wife.... his daughter...

but i have to wonder... is it more of a burden that the 18 month old grows up without the benefit of her father's wisdom... advice... discipline

i think we sometimes put too much on what the body is able to do... and don't give nearly enough credit to all that we have to offer as just people... thoughts... ideas... experiences...

i'm in the midst of many medical tests... (and if i need you i'll let you know this is the topic of another blog)... but the point currently is no matter the outcome... i will choose to fight for my children because i want to watch them grow... i want to hear their opinions... i want to share my thoughts on what they want to wear for their first dance... graduation... i want to meet the people that they love... i want to kiss away their tears when their hearts break... there will always be things i can provide with so much more than my arms and legs...

does that make sense... for my friend... i will hold her hand through this hell she is in... and pray everyday for her to find peace in his decision... if you are a person that prays... send one up for them... they will need all they can get