'...hate me so you can finally see'

'what's good for you' ~ Blue October

and i heard this on the radio... yesterday... randomly... which made me S*T*U*P*I*D happy

so here is it... quite possibly my favorite song forever... and for me to say that is saying A LOT...

Hate Me ~ Blue October (oh and check them out... Jay Leno - April 14th)

i have to block out thoughts of you so i don’t lose my head
they crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
dropping little reels of tape to remind me that i’m alone
playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
there's a burning in my pride... a nervous bleeding in my brain
an ounce of peace is all I want for you
will you never call again...
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
and will you never try to reach me
it is i that wanted space

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hte me so you can finally see what’s good for you

im sober now for 3 whole months
it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
the one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing i won’t touch again
in a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
while I was busy waging wars on myself
you were trying to stop the fight
you never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
you made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
so i’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
and do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

and with a sad heart i say bye to you and wave
kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that i had made
and like a baby boy i never was a man
until i saw your blue eyes crying and i held your face in my hand
and then i fell down yelling make it go away
just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
and then she whispered...how can you do this to me

hate me today
hate me tomorrow
hate me for all the things i didn’t do for you

hate me in ways
yeah ways hard to swallow
hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you