for my Kailey...

Poem for Dog Lovers

Hello. I've been expecting you for quite some time.
Here, come sit beside us for awhile .
and let me tell you about this old friend of mine.
She might look tattered or maybe old
But I won't say goodbye until you've been told.
She had the brightest eyes I had ever seen,
And wore a beautiful fur coat that would out shine a queen .
She was never prissy but walked with an aire ......
And oh so polite, you could take her most anywhere.
She could run like the wind and could catch anything she chased
But she protected and sat with me when I had problems to face.
You could not find a friend nearly so dear.
Because no matter the trouble she always stayed near...
She has never asked for much from me;
Just to love and respect her and I think you'll agree .
To give her a good meal plus a nice warm bed is not much to ask ;
When she has given me all her love and to her this was no task.
Now I understand you have a schedule to keep.
But I have a small favor before she nods off to sleep.
Please fold your wings around her and let her feel young while in no pain ;
Dear Guardian Angel of Pets ,
please keep her safe and happy until I see her again.

Ginger Patton

my wish for you all...

May your tears come from laughing

You find friends worth having

With every year passing

They mean more than gold

May you win and stay humble

Smile more than grumble

And know when you stumble

You're never alone




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Almost Famous is my Favorite Movie...

and unlike music that answer doesn't change.... my favorite line in Almost Famous is

'They don't even know what it is to be a fan. Y'know? To truly love some silly little piece of music, or some band, so much that it hurts.'

I was on my elliptical this morning and Rob Thomas Live At The Red Rocks was assisting in my work out... he does If You're Gone acoustically during this performance. As I was listening to that i realized I miss the horns during the acoustic version...

Now I'm a lyrics girl... pretty much that's what gets me, the music and melody is secondary... the lyrics are what make me fall in love with a song PERIOD. However... there are a few songs that for whatever reason... something else stands out... so if you are so inclined... what about you? Are there certain songs that if the bass line or fiddle were missing ~ you would feel like you had Thanksgiving without the mashed potatoes??

These are the ones that come to mind right off for me...

1. If You're Gone by Matchbox 20... the horns
2. Crush by Dave Matthews Band... the bass line in that song... is as my favorite GUY would say Money
3. Eden's Gate by Pat Green... the fiddle... The Fiddle... THE FIDDLE *swoon*
4. Vincent Black Lightening by Reckless Kelly... the lead guitar in this song just makes me want to dance ~ and I don't dance except with Jake in convenience stores to goofy songs!

I. LOVE. THIS.

The Cocoa Butter one... its FABULOUS... it smells heavenly and it leaves my skin so soft.

Which means they will stop selling it in about a month!

favorite...

if you haven't checked out Kings of Leon yet... please do and while the new album is great ~ don't be afraid to check out this older stuff 'cause it's GREATNESS too.

Wyoming and Idaho

So i've been trying to write about my trip since I got back and I'm not sure yet that I have the right words to articulate everything... but I'm going to try. First of all ~ it was GORGEOUS... but here decide for yourself...







the last night we stayed in this very quaint little cabin... which WHEN I take the kids is where we will stay for the duration because it was absolutely charming...

and WHEN I take my children... we WILL do this because it was THE. MOST. FUN. EVER.

There were Brauns... lots of Brauns... walking around like they are just regular people... holding the door open and talking to me like they could see me or something... apparently they didn't get the memo.

It was cold but I didn't mind it... there was hail... it makes us giggle thinking about it... did I mention that it was gorgeous I'm pretty sure we drove straight through God's heart between Challis and Salmon!

My most favorite memory of my vacation... friday night... walking into the hotel room and the face of Deidre smiling big as day because I made it back to the room just as the Creed Concert was about to play on vh1... Perfect!

twice in one day...

I've been called the mean one. I'm not sure that I don't love this. I've been the 'nice' one for so long now I believe that some may have taken that to mean I wasn't so much a force to be reckoned with as much as one to be walked on and taken advantage of... let me assure you friends while I may get down from time to time do not mistake me for being 'out'... I've cleaned out my closet lately and I'm really happy with what has been tossed and most certainly happy for what remains both the old standards that I've relied on more than anyone should ever have too... and the recent additions.

I'm sincerely blessed...

and now i lay him down to sleep

'It's what I dream of every night mama, to be a famous and loving Rock Star.' ~ Jake to me last night as I was tucking him in to bed... 'cause Rock Stars are known to be 'loving' bwahahahahaha

gone too soon...

she cared for my young ones... and now she is in the care of OUR FATHER... i'm off to say a final good bye to this beautiful young lady who has left us far too soon.

a face lift...

i thought it might inspire... so here are a few things for y'all

* i twitter now... which means Travis Barker, Chris Daughtry and Shaq are now amongst my nearest and dearest

* i went to Wyoming and Idaho... i learned i'm NOT cool enough lol BUT it was a FABULOUS lesson to learn

* when i grow up i want to be a river guide

* i finally 'get' Jack Ingram

* i am considering sending the 13 year old back... i'm trying to find the receipt

* apparently my calling in life might be something like that of the dude from The Cleaner... i'm not sure it's what i want so when that 'call' comes in can you just ignore it... that's what i do if someone calls on my blackberry and i don't feel like talking

* $15 for Creed AND Staind... deal of the DECADE!

* i'm late for this party but i'm in LOVE with the Pioneer woman and her WHOLE family... but if they don't invite us for Thanksgiving i have a MOST acceptable back up plan

* the only good thing about the next six months is Thanksgiving by the way... its fall ~ NOT. A. FAN.

* i still love Tim McGraw and i'm not going to apologize for that... i only listen to The Dancehall Doctor's and previous albums however

'til next time... love Love LOVE

Gem's from Jake

ok i considered starting a whole new blog... but decided i'll just add them here mostly because i don't want to forget them and later when i say you were a hoot back in the day... and he asks like what do you mean... i can show him!

so we were listening to Barefoot and Crazy on Sunday... he looks at me...

'Meet me at the bottom with a cool whip kiss... well that's weird!'

'No baby... it's cool WET kiss'

'oh...' he thinks for a minute... 'That would be tasty though wouldn't it?'

we got home from the day yesterday and i pull into our parking spot... Jake opens his door to get out of the car and he says to me 'Come on movie star... your stage awaits.' BWAHAHAHAHAHA

so from now on every now and again... i'll bring you some more Gem's from my Jake!

he believes in me too much...

i'm pretty sure of it because that whole he doesn't give you more than you can handle... well lately i'm not handling any of it all very well.

i keep coming here and attempting to write about things but even that feels heavy... a lot will be decided this week... please my friends keep us in your prayers

"We Had Him"

Beloveds, now we know that we know nothing.
Now that our bright and shining star can slip away from our finger tips like a puff of summer wind.
Without notice, our dear love can escape our doding embrace.
Sing our songs among the stars and walk our dances across the face of the moon.
In the instance we learn that Michael is gone, we know nothing.
No clocks can tell our time and no oceans can rush our tides.
With the abrupt absence of our treasure, though we are many, each of us is achingly alone; piercingly alone.
Only when we confess our confusion can we remember that he was a gift to us and we did have him.
He came to us from the Creator, trailing creativity in abundance.
Despite the anguish of life, he was sheethed in Mother Love and family love and survived.
And did not more than that, he thrived.
With passion and compassion. Humor and Style.
We had him.
Whether we knew who he was or did not know, he was ours and we were his.
We had him.
Beautiful, delighting our eyes. he raked his hat.
Slant over his brow and took a pose on his toes for all of us and we laughed and stomped our feet for him.
We were enchanted with his passion because he held nothing; he gave us all he had been given.
Today in Tokyo, beneath the Eifel Tower. In Ghana's Black Star Square, in Johannasburg, and Pittsburgh. In Birmingham, Alabama and Birmingham, England. We are missing Michael Jackson.
But we do know we had him.
And we are the world.

-Dr. Maya Angelou; read by Queen Latifah

it's hard to believe that it's been 5 years

because it feels like yesterday and forever ago all at the same time!

I'm so grateful for my life today... I have a brother that I didn't have 5 years ago. I can feel my heart again... it hurt too much five years ago to allow it to feel. My children now know the faces and have spent quality time with those that became so important to me. We have shared so many experiences and they finally got to see me TRULY at my best and most happy.

I'm grateful for all the ones that are vital in my daily life now that never would have been had I not made that first trip.

I'm grateful for all the ones that were the reason I wanted to make that first trip to begin with.

I'm grateful that I live under the biggest sky on the planet with the most magical sunsets I've ever seen.

I'm grateful that I sit on my back patio and hear the crickets... but can drive just 20 minutes and see the beautiful lights of downtown Dallas.

Five years ago this weekend... I came to Texas for the first time... I'm so grateful today that this is where I make my home and for the family that comes along with that.

today's the day my friends...

the world can be so cruel
well let me sing for you
this cradle song
all night long...

it's worth it... however you get your music ~ get Cradlesong by Rob Thomas!!!

i have sooooo much to say...

and yet i'm tonguetied all at the same time...

Michael Jackson's contribution to the world was CRUCIAL in forming who I am today.

I may be the ONLY PERSON on the planet that got where he was coming from when he talked about sharing the love... extending a bed to those without one... it wasn't about sex or anything perverted or anything devious... it was about recognizing that there are so many with less than nothing and being one with SO MUCH to share with them... he gave the world so much and still the world asked for more and speculated about things that our shameful society didn't understand...

For me the bottomline... he was an artist... sometimes it was a blessing... sometimes a curse beyond all curses... he was in fact as so many before me have said... MAGIC

'...everyone's taking control of me
seems that the world's got a role for me
I'm so confused will you show to me
will you be there for me
and care enough to bear me...' ~ Will You Be There... Michael Jackson

and it's really only Wednesday

sooo to catch those of you up that don't follow my mess on twitter...

I get to daycare facility on Monday to pick up Frodo (read Jake... however remember the previously blogged about forest incident ~ ok you see where I'm going then!)... they take the little tag that is supposed to ensure no one picks him up... he is where he is supposed to be safely locked away until he is released into the loving care of well... ME. I'm waiting and waiting as my son has 2 speeds ~ slow and slower!

He arrives... and is standing next to a police office ~ I joke 'You're not with him are you?' ~ officer 'Are you Jake's mom?'

YEAH... NICE right...

So Frodo was not happy with another child at daycare and knowing that inflicting bodily harm would NOT fare him well... he decided to pack up his coloring... grab his back pack and walk home.

Let me explain ~ Daycare is on east side of the major N/S interstate... the VERY NICE Officer picked my child up on the west side of the majoy N/S interstate and one exit South (closer to our home... he does in fact know how to get home from daycare!)

Yes ~ every possible emotion one can feel in the matter of 10 minutes I had... some I didn't even know you could have!!!

He is fine because as he pointed out... he stayed on the grass the entire time! In fact, he's rather puzzled as to what he did that was so wrong. Well Frodo, there are a whole slew of awful people that could have picked you up and tried to make you their own ~ 'Mom, I left daycare, I would leave them too... I'm ALWAYS going to be with you!!!'

The police officer was extremely nice and puzzled why my fearless, independent child was not afraid of walking along a major freeway but seemed terrified of a police officer ~ OOPS... The Daycare facility is now being investigated by the state ~ I did what I don't do and marched in there and said "ummmmm yeah he shouldn't have left ~ but really y'all were supposed to be watching and he walked right out the front door ~ wtf!!!" I was a bit more eloquent than that and there were a lot more tears.

Fun Times... ugh

*sigh*

here's why I love my life... after nights like last night, I'm NOT sad anymore!!


and I have half a mind to drive to Ardmore and do it all over again tonight... i'm still on a Braun high... that will wear off around 2pm and I'll be very excited to be in my bed by like 7pm...

Thanks my beautiful friends... the day of my birth used to SUK ~ not so much any more!!!!!

have I mentioned that I LOVE him...

www.huffingtonpost.com/rob-thomas/the-big-gay-chip-on-my-sh_b_208183.html

you'll have to copy and paste that link... but GO read the story it's GREATNESS!!!!

Bravo Mr. Thomas... BRAVO!!

there will be more greatness...

as I've mentioned previously, but well it bears repeating, Rob Thomas was given his gift to keep me sane!!!

'and she says oooh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cuz I can't help her now
She’s down in it
She tried her best and now she can't win it's
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down...'

the new album cradlesong will be out in June... *sigh*